and just like that another year concludes, lets begin.

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well i think i kinda undid my fine work the previous semester and i'm back to status quo a year ago. ain't got no one to fault but myself.

that said, i suppose while its still possible to attain statistically, realistically however i guess its rather improbable.

however, that doesnt mean that i'm giving up though; as long as there's even a sliver of a chance i'm going all out for it no matter what.

that said, been going to school almost on a daily basis during this holiday from day to night to do my urop project and so far it aint looking so good right now in all fairness.

also, been taking the time to learn hysys too and some readings for next semester stuff too. (i guess this is my way of atoning for my mediocrity this semester, if nothing else)

i guess i'm in a world of hurt right now, but i suppose its a matter or now or later; in any case, i might as well bite the bullet and suffer now rather than to taste the same horrors down the road (and possibly panic due to a lack of time).

also, realizing the actual scale of my impending final year project and also design project, i think its safe to say that whatever i've experienced up to now is child's play.

this will be one hell of a challenge (or struggle), but if that means building up my competency by all means i'm more than willing to take it.

well, time isn't on my side anymore is it? haha.



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starting an internship at a semicon plant next week.

isn't exactly my first choice of work (wanted oil and gas but i was too lazy to apply through their dedicated jobs portal, goes to show how sloppy i am), but i suppose its cool to try out something different and see if its to my liking anyway.

after all, nothing ventured, nothing gained.

that said though i hope that i'll be able to cope with it (and not piss off anyone in the process).

(well gary you'll find a way to deal with it one way or another)

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went to hokkaido for about a week.

i really liked the hot springs in general (soaking in an outdoor bath at 2am in the morning and seeing nothing but darkness? sign me up!), they make me feel warm and fuzzy somehow (well no shit i suppose).

i also personally liked their culture as well in spite of some flaws.

only downer is the occasional extreme cold weather which my body certainly isn't used to, but i reckon with time i should be able to acclimatise myself to it.

oh and i cant exactly speak japanese well either (havent even taken the N5 exam due to lack of time, go figure) but i was able to navigate my way alone with no difficulty.

perhaps a job in japan might be cool too.

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been prepping for grade 4 this coming july/august.

i feel rather unprepared to be honest, since for the past 2 grades i've usually cleared all 3 of my pieces by this time but now, i'm barely halfway through the 3rd piece.

moreover, the sightreading section this time round isn't exactly 'cheese-able' as compared to before as well, so all the more its kinda scary.

but that said, it won't stop me from trying (and enjoying in the process too).

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again, i still haven't found an answer to what i am or what i want.

but that said, perhaps i might come to terms with the possibility that there might not even be a satisfactory answer.

at least one thing is certain though - i still stand by my wish to die early.

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guess there isn't much for me to talk about this time round since i've talked about the first half of the year in the previous post back in july/august.

in any case, here's to another year of challenges and fun times.