and just like that another year concludes, lets begin.
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well i think i kinda undid my fine work the previous semester and i'm back to status quo a year ago. ain't got no one to fault but myself.
that said, i suppose while its still possible to attain statistically, realistically however i guess its rather improbable.
however, that doesnt mean that i'm giving up though; as long as there's even a sliver of a chance i'm going all out for it no matter what.
that said, been going to school almost on a daily basis during this holiday from day to night to do my urop project and so far it aint looking so good right now in all fairness.
also, been taking the time to learn hysys too and some readings for next semester stuff too. (i guess this is my way of atoning for my mediocrity this semester, if nothing else)
i guess i'm in a world of hurt right now, but i suppose its a matter or now or later; in any case, i might as well bite the bullet and suffer now rather than to taste the same horrors down the road (and possibly panic due to a lack of time).
also, realizing the actual scale of my impending final year project and also design project, i think its safe to say that whatever i've experienced up to now is child's play.
this will be one hell of a challenge (or struggle), but if that means building up my competency by all means i'm more than willing to take it.
well, time isn't on my side anymore is it? haha.
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starting an internship at a semicon plant next week.
isn't exactly my first choice of work (wanted oil and gas but i was too lazy to apply through their dedicated jobs portal, goes to show how sloppy i am), but i suppose its cool to try out something different and see if its to my liking anyway.
after all, nothing ventured, nothing gained.
that said though i hope that i'll be able to cope with it (and not piss off anyone in the process).
(well gary you'll find a way to deal with it one way or another)
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went to hokkaido for about a week.
i really liked the hot springs in general (soaking in an outdoor bath at 2am in the morning and seeing nothing but darkness? sign me up!), they make me feel warm and fuzzy somehow (well no shit i suppose).
i also personally liked their culture as well in spite of some flaws.
only downer is the occasional extreme cold weather which my body certainly isn't used to, but i reckon with time i should be able to acclimatise myself to it.
oh and i cant exactly speak japanese well either (havent even taken the N5 exam due to lack of time, go figure) but i was able to navigate my way alone with no difficulty.
perhaps a job in japan might be cool too.
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been prepping for grade 4 this coming july/august.
i feel rather unprepared to be honest, since for the past 2 grades i've usually cleared all 3 of my pieces by this time but now, i'm barely halfway through the 3rd piece.
moreover, the sightreading section this time round isn't exactly 'cheese-able' as compared to before as well, so all the more its kinda scary.
but that said, it won't stop me from trying (and enjoying in the process too).
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again, i still haven't found an answer to what i am or what i want.
but that said, perhaps i might come to terms with the possibility that there might not even be a satisfactory answer.
at least one thing is certain though - i still stand by my wish to die early.
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guess there isn't much for me to talk about this time round since i've talked about the first half of the year in the previous post back in july/august.
in any case, here's to another year of challenges and fun times.
Wednesday, December 31
Wednesday, August 13
i somewhat realized that i've pretty much almost forgetton to write stuff for the first half of this year, so whoops, let's not wait any further and begin.
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so semester 2, 2013-2014 has concluded.
got to say that its been a very good run, all things considered.
more importantly, it seems that the dream is actually alive; i actually have a fighting chance to make it right to the end with this.
... guess the only risk is that i somehow manage to trip and screw myself over.
in any case, as always, i'll just do my best and everything will fall into place as it is (at least thats what i hope, ha.)
good luck, gary!
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been busy with UROP.
some research on how hot water can freeze faster than cold water under certain circumstances.
so far no breakthroughs, but been having some fun learning how to use the simulation programs at least.
only bummer part is that i gotta learn everything from scratch, but hey isn't university life the same as well? ha.
i foresee myself continuing to do this until next year at least, this will serve as a nice distraction from studies while i humor myself with computer simulations.
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its funny how i'm already two years in, and i still feel like its year 1 sem 1 (or year 0, spec term).
time does fly i guess; in two years i'm off to the working world (unless i somehow decide to study further which i doubt so).
i have to admit that i really like my time in nus so far, and i will go so far as to say that i'll miss university life when i start working.
guess some people hate university life which i can understand, but i feel that it suits me rather well.
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cleared grade 3 in july.
... and i actually somehow manage to one up my previous attempt too. that was really, really surprising.
well, off to grade 4 i go!
also, i can finally finish the entire sleepless city treno piece(although admittably it will take more practice to refine it to acceptable standards).
perhaps in few more years i can play any music that i want for my own personal enjoyment.
(and also add a wish list to get an actual upright/electone piano too).
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sometimes when i decide to go on facebook and see how others are doing, i realize that i'm actually rather antisocial (as if that fact wasn't obvious enough to me).
acutally, antisocial isnt exactly the right word either; its more of 'i value personal time way, way more than talking to others' than 'i dont want to talk to anyone at all'.
but in any case, i think the end result is the same too ha.
well i guess i have to live with the consequences of my actions (and i'm more than happy to accept it).
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sometimes i think about the future and what it holds, and i realize its an exercise in futility.
there's so many permutations and scenarios and possibilities that i can spend an eternity thinking about it, and yet i will get no conclusive outcomes or results.
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i find that it is always best to hope for nothing, and expect the worst in all situations.
that way, you'll never be disappointed, and perhaps even surprise yourself if things dont go south.
perhaps some might see this as negative thinking (or any other terms that connotes negativity) but i find that its a better and easier way to see life as a whole.
---
i'll end my musings early as i still have many things that awaits me.
i'll probably continue more on my research project at the end of the year as usual.
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so semester 2, 2013-2014 has concluded.
got to say that its been a very good run, all things considered.
more importantly, it seems that the dream is actually alive; i actually have a fighting chance to make it right to the end with this.
... guess the only risk is that i somehow manage to trip and screw myself over.
in any case, as always, i'll just do my best and everything will fall into place as it is (at least thats what i hope, ha.)
good luck, gary!
---
been busy with UROP.
some research on how hot water can freeze faster than cold water under certain circumstances.
so far no breakthroughs, but been having some fun learning how to use the simulation programs at least.
only bummer part is that i gotta learn everything from scratch, but hey isn't university life the same as well? ha.
i foresee myself continuing to do this until next year at least, this will serve as a nice distraction from studies while i humor myself with computer simulations.
---
its funny how i'm already two years in, and i still feel like its year 1 sem 1 (or year 0, spec term).
time does fly i guess; in two years i'm off to the working world (unless i somehow decide to study further which i doubt so).
i have to admit that i really like my time in nus so far, and i will go so far as to say that i'll miss university life when i start working.
guess some people hate university life which i can understand, but i feel that it suits me rather well.
---
cleared grade 3 in july.
... and i actually somehow manage to one up my previous attempt too. that was really, really surprising.
well, off to grade 4 i go!
also, i can finally finish the entire sleepless city treno piece(although admittably it will take more practice to refine it to acceptable standards).
perhaps in few more years i can play any music that i want for my own personal enjoyment.
(and also add a wish list to get an actual upright/electone piano too).
---
sometimes when i decide to go on facebook and see how others are doing, i realize that i'm actually rather antisocial (as if that fact wasn't obvious enough to me).
acutally, antisocial isnt exactly the right word either; its more of 'i value personal time way, way more than talking to others' than 'i dont want to talk to anyone at all'.
but in any case, i think the end result is the same too ha.
well i guess i have to live with the consequences of my actions (and i'm more than happy to accept it).
----
sometimes i think about the future and what it holds, and i realize its an exercise in futility.
there's so many permutations and scenarios and possibilities that i can spend an eternity thinking about it, and yet i will get no conclusive outcomes or results.
---
i find that it is always best to hope for nothing, and expect the worst in all situations.
that way, you'll never be disappointed, and perhaps even surprise yourself if things dont go south.
perhaps some might see this as negative thinking (or any other terms that connotes negativity) but i find that its a better and easier way to see life as a whole.
---
i'll end my musings early as i still have many things that awaits me.
i'll probably continue more on my research project at the end of the year as usual.
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