i somewhat realized that i've pretty much almost forgetton to write stuff for the first half of this year, so whoops, let's not wait any further and begin.

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so semester 2, 2013-2014 has concluded.

got to say that its been a very good run, all things considered.

more importantly, it seems that the dream is actually alive; i actually have a fighting chance to make it right to the end with this.

... guess the only risk is that i somehow manage to trip and screw myself over.

in any case, as always, i'll just do my best and everything will fall into place as it is (at least thats what i hope, ha.)

 good luck, gary!
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been busy with UROP.

some research on how hot water can freeze faster than cold water under certain circumstances.

so far no breakthroughs, but been having some fun learning how to use the simulation programs at least.

only bummer part is that i gotta learn everything from scratch, but hey isn't university life the same as well? ha.

i foresee myself continuing to do this until next year at least, this will serve as a nice distraction from studies while i humor myself with computer simulations.

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its funny how i'm already two years in, and i still feel like its year 1 sem 1 (or year 0, spec term).

time does fly i guess; in two years i'm off to the working world (unless i somehow decide to study further which i doubt so).

i have to admit that i really like my time in nus so far, and i will go so far as to say that i'll miss university life when i start working.

guess some people hate university life which i can understand, but i feel that it suits me rather well.

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cleared grade 3 in july.

... and i actually somehow manage to one up my previous attempt too. that was really, really surprising.

well, off to grade 4 i go!

also, i can finally finish the entire sleepless city treno piece(although admittably it will take more practice to refine it to acceptable standards).

perhaps in few more years i can play any music that i want for my own personal enjoyment.

(and also add a wish list to get an actual upright/electone piano too).

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sometimes when i decide to go on facebook and see how others are doing, i realize that i'm actually rather antisocial (as if that fact wasn't obvious enough to me).

acutally, antisocial isnt exactly the right word either; its more of 'i value personal time way, way more than talking to others' than 'i dont want to talk to anyone at all'.

but in any case, i think the end result is the same too ha.

well i guess i have to live with the consequences of my actions (and i'm more than happy to accept it).


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sometimes i think about the future and what it holds, and i realize its an exercise in futility.


there's so many permutations and scenarios and possibilities that i can spend an eternity thinking about it, and yet i will get no conclusive outcomes or results.



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i find that it is always best to hope for nothing, and expect the worst in all situations.

that way, you'll never be disappointed, and perhaps even surprise yourself if things dont go south.

perhaps some might see this as negative thinking (or any other terms that connotes negativity) but i find that its a better and easier way to see life as a whole.



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i'll end my musings early as i still have many things that awaits me.

i'll probably continue more on my research project at the end of the year as usual.